It's been a while since my last update. Life has been so so crazy, I couldn't even describe it!!. I've started working as a Product Specialist selling drugs in a Pharma company. It's definitely much much ..MUCH difficult than I thought, coping with the working world. In fact, there's so many rules and so much to learn, I somehow at some point, started to doubt myself if I really can really survive in my job?.Well, I'm not gonna start giving up and I'm not gonna stop trying and learning. Not gonna talk much about it ( I'm not allowed to,anyway =.=')..So ya, I LOVE MY JOB, I LOVE MY JOB, I LOVE MY JOB!!...
There's also a lot of ups and downs these past few months... Honestly, it's really really stressful and tiring. But what can I say, my "Fake a smile" technique is improving day by day. I cried a lot and got very emotional because of that. Great thing is, lucky I got my lovely friends to always be there for me, support and care for me! And also my step father, the thing he did for my broken family, I owe him so much that I don't even know how to pay him!. Bro and mom, well, we have our way to love each other~
Chaos in family..I somehow wondered, the word RELATIONSHIP and LOVE, to me is so....Weird???..I don't know.
Being in my shoe, it's weird to see how couples can get so madly in love, one moment they enjoy being together so much, they make a vow that sounds so blissful - "till death do us part", had children and stuff..but at last, they end up realizing that they actually hate each other so much and they somewhat thought that being together and giving birth to the children was a huge mistake. That's shitty!
It makes me take a few steps back when it comes to relationship, be it as couples, as family or what so ever. And honestly, in my heart, there are some missing pieces~ and more has been taken away.
I'm writing this while talking to my mom on the phone, She's getting emotional talking about my "biological" father that seems so "artificial" to me. Getting more and more "artificial". Me being the intermediate between my parents who hates each other so much, it makes me lost hope and faith and I begin to question myself, what more could I believe and rely on?
All in all, I'm just a simple girl who always get caught up in messed up situations and complicated life. Been having a really hard and painful time, and I'm not trying to get emotional or being pitiful. I'm writing this is just for the sake of throwing something out of my chest.
Well, what can I do to make things right??..My bro told me one thing this morning, "I'm fuckin tired trying to fix our family". I was thinking, that's exactly how I felt for a long time ago!..Like him, I am now still finding my way out from all the screaming and tears. And hopefully I will find that bright rennbowy way.If u ask me what's the thing that I will change in my life if I were given a chance, well, for now, I will said none!. It's true, you can't choose your family, and I'm not gonna start choosing. It's them who create the ME now, and it's them who gave me my life that I'm living now. Guess every family have their own story, I'm having mine in a different way~ I'm taking it this way- The pain, it's not enough to kill me, it only makes me stronger~
Hmmm..Enough of the stories. Else it'll go on and on and on until forever~
Verdict- I'm RENN, like the name, my life it full of down pour "RAIN", like the name, I do believe someday my RENNBOW will appear with extra glittery colour!~
More updates next post guys...It's great to be back!..XoXo
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Stories behind the Rennbow~ The emotional part of me
Friday, June 11, 2010
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
If you could change one thing that happened last year what would it be?
nothing~..wat will be..will be!
Do you consider yourself a good dancer?
tht's a good 1 Q!...i'm still learning...never good enuff..tht way only i able to keep myself learning and improving!
Friday, May 7, 2010
What would your perfect day look like?
i have a lot of version..here's 1..open eyes, start with a sweet smile, seeing people tht i like, laugh fun play,hang out...endof the day..i'll still giggle when i think back~~
Sunday, April 25, 2010
What was the happiest moment in your life?
being with my loved ones, seeing him/ them happy..then again, high sch period, and spending fun time wth my friends make me the happiest person in the world too~~
Where's your favorite place to buy clothes?
huh!!!..ALOT!!!..practically all the shopping centers in KL...1U, Sunway, Sg. Wang, Times Square, Pavillion.u name it!
What was the worst concert you went to?
non..i will just make myself into the SELF-HIGH mode~..no matter how bad, i will still enjoy~lol
Would you rather date a lot of different people, or be in a committed relationship?
committed...but then again..it's DAMN complicated!
What one thing are you exceptionally bad at?
ignoring certain things~..and also over come my phobia in Relationship?
Would you rather be really hot or really cold?
yer..neither of them..i get very irritated when i'm hot and i get really suffer when i'm cold..my lips turn purple real fast and i look like being poisoned which i hate the most!
When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?
ou..there's a lot...a business woman, doctor, actress, model, etc etc..even someone's leading lady ( it's not even a job)!.lol..but all failed~~haih~
If you could attend any concert, what would it be?
Dancers Gala...is there anything like tht??LOL..like LXD^^
If you had the opportunity to live one year of your life over again, which year would you choose?
this year..i dun think of this oo..i let the past be the past..wat's important is i live my present life as happy as possible ^^
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Friday, April 23, 2010
Thursday, April 1, 2010
I Love My JoB, I loVe My JoB , I LURRRVEEE My JoB!!!!
Hey,it's been a while since my last visit~~miss u guys so much!!..I'm adapting my new life in the working world currently~..A total new chapter in my life, I'm nothing more than a baby learning to crawl~..I started working on 1st of April 2010..The process of getting through the interview were crazy~..From 200 over candidates, 8 eventually got to the 2nd interview, and now there were only 4 of us..
Blur case Bob, Smartie Jin, Crazie Renn, and Farnie Jane!..the final 4 ..The FANTASTIC 4!
From total strangers,we became real good friends and did everything together until people started saying that we are so glued to each other!..LOL..Well, sort of!
Then there were this event called the National Sale Convention (NSC), held every 3 years once!..Lucky us joined Roche at the perfect time!!.This year, it was held in Pullman Hotel in Putrajaya for 4 days 3 nights.We were divided into different groups with the theme"Disney in Us!". The teams were Cars, Finding Nemo, Lion King, A Bug's Life and TARZAN!..ME!!..Tarzan!!!..Lead by the sweetie, petite but caliber lady, Wei Wan, All of us gave 101% effort to make the best out of it!.There were shout outs, booth setting, flags, performance etc..OMG..so much to prepare!!..Thx to all the seniors (Noora and Wei Wan especially), Tarzan hit the home run and won as the grand winner!!!...The greatest time I had was of course the last night, the Gala dinner night where everyone have to wear a costume by the theme Disney!..It was fun to see so many Disney character in real life!!... So many to talk bout the NSC..i'll post it in a separate post later^^..LOL
What about my company???..Well, Roche is a great company with nice people, seniors are so helpful and all 4 of us did enjoyed working there...Stress thing is, we have to sit for exam every 3 months with passing marks 80 and above!DIE!!!
..i dun even dare to imagine wat's the consequences!!..Talking about people in Roche, we didn't know the managers and seniors can be that crazy funny until we went to the NSC..all their kiddo self were brought out during the meeting!..1st week self introduction was chaos..haha..the ultimate question, "Are you single and available?"..all 3 of them are attached~,, When it comes to my turn, and my answer was S&A...the whole room went crazy..whistling here and there, teasing the single bachelor colleagues!!..I was blushing as red as an apple that time!!..LOL..so funny!
It's already been nearly 2 months now~ All 4 of us are still learning and adjusting ourselves in the field trying to pick up the pace!..I tend to keep pressuring myself to do better...i was worried seriously~~My job, it's really not that easy! I was tagged with my senior, Ash, for the whole week and was introduced to the doctors and the places. So much to learn, I can't even digest!..Ash was helpful and nice! how I hope I can tag with her forever!!
Up till now, I've just got my wings and begin to go alone. driving the whole KL alone, jam long walks, forever waiting, all that, it's really not that simple and fun. Thought, I"ll keep my finger crossed for all the challenges that's coming my way!..Form here onwards, I kick off and shine!!!
Wish myself a colourful working life!
Friday, March 26, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
A touch of Rennbow's life~
Hey folks!~
Ya ya, I know it's been a while since I last update my blog~....It's been a busy time~
Prepare for charity show, me searching for job, went interview, grandma came , grandma back and grandma come again...Mom and dad fight, peace a moment and fight again..etc...phew~..too exhausted!
Also, started Dennis' class on March, celebrated Teng's birthday, crazy time with RV, Geraldine went Penang for her baby girl (can't wait^^), some confessions were made (shocking but flattering)..Then, recently been enjoying my days chatting with Lucky till crazy EARLY...haha..Laughing too much!..Though, Dad was admitted to hospital for quite sometime edi, Hmm, I told myself, suck it up! Big girls don't cry!...I wanted to face this as calm as I could with all the chaos from family~..It was a really hard time!..Every time trying fake a smile even when I'm dead upset, I just don't want to bring this negative energy to my friends..Laughing so crazily with them, deep down, there's somewhere wounded and I guess I have to let it heal silently...Haih~
Btw, went through a crazy interview, I was short listed from 200 0ver candidates and here I am, they've confirmed me!!!..Wahahahaha...Not bad huh?!
Hopefully I'll enjoy my days working!!..
There's too much to summarize, there's been alot ups and downs...but what keeps me going is the support I got from my relatives and friends. So ya, here I am, still struggle hard to live my life happily and trying to put my problems and sadness behind myself...Remember I used to be the most unlucky girl in the world?..Well not this time, I'm not gonna give in to this so called "fate".. and i'll create my luck on my own!!..Cheers for Renn!!!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
dayDream Album Launching, Thai Club, KL
I was invited to the dayDream 1st album launching on 8th of March 2010 at Thai Club, KL. dayDream was the latest band established under ManRoom which was the same company with ManHand. It consist of 6 members, namely Daeren Tan, also one of the members of ManHand; his brother, Ryan Tan; Raja, Ryan, Chris and Jason.
The event started at 2pm, after registration, we were given a door gift which look like a delivery packet. After opening, it was actually their album, uniquely designed with light blue, white and orange tone. I really like that album concept, where you can change their clothes according to your preference, simply symbolizing that our life is full of choices and if you dare to dream, you can rule your destiny.
They came out performing with a catchy light blue mechanic outfit, bringing up the party atmosphere. Everyone was so busy snapping pictures of them including me. Their songs were more singing than rapping based, unlike Manhand. I do enjoy their song anyway,a different feel.
Their 1st album!!..nice design!
The crowd which include media, newspaper reporters and photographers!
dayDream rule the stage!
dayDream featuring ManHand!...one big family!
The group picture!..thanks to all the VVIPs!!!
Thanks for the hardwork again!!!..Yeah!!
dayDream...dream your dreams and make it come true!!
Me and Joe!!!
Fai and Renn !
Dreaming already!
Saw Von and quickly grab her for picture!!!..She's becoming more and more beautiful in a very stylish way!
Love this pic!
The simple buffet
Well, I had fun and all the best to dayDream!!!..Waiting for your upcoming nice song and marvelous performance!!!..Salute everyone that involved, especially god bro,Don Ng!!!..That was super hard work!...Support dayDream, support ManHand, support ManRoom!..U guys rock!
Sunday, March 7, 2010
San Terri Cottage, Times Bookstore, Pavillion
And the story continues...
Previous post was talking about me having my wonderful lunch with wonderful people at a great restaurant, Grandmama's. But the fun doesn't stop there, Stephen brought me into Times Bookstore after the lunch..Thinking to myself, well that was weird, Stephen doesn't seems like someone who'll spend his leisure time reading!..haha...no offense!..Well, the truth is, it was not the books he's bringing me to, but a hidden gem inside the books store!- San Terri Cottage!
San Terri Cottage is located in level 6 Pavillion, inside Times Bookstore. I had totally no idea that there was such a good place hidden in the book store. It was quite, with soothing music giving a very calming feeling. Grab your favorite book, have a cuppa with extreme tempting aroma, match it with cute beautiful cakes..life has never been that perfect!...Aside of coffees and cakes, their menu also consist of a huge varieties of beverages, comestibles and desserts that will definitely tinkle your taste bud!
Soft comfy couch at a hidden corner..best for relaxing!
Stephen was forced to be my model!..haha
Fish eye effect on Stephen^^
Nice quiet environment with tons of books surrounding you!
The cute lovely counter
The cute petite cakes!
They offer sandwiches and other snacks too!
illy espresso machine!
Brewed Coffee!...smells heavenly!
Cappuccino...good companion for an exhausted afternoon!
Green Tea Azuki Swiss Roll!!Yum!!!..FYI, I'm a green tea sucker!
Cafe Latte...smooth and creamy!!
We were chilling happily there after the lunch..Uncle Lau brought his lap top along and showed me his diving pictures with Stephen in Redang Island~~Honestly, I was really glad to spend my afternoon with them, enjoying the real life before going back into reality..Though it was short, it was beautiful!.San Terri, this place is another heavenly place for a sweet escape from the reality tiring life!
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